When the music played, my pain and joy would be dissolved in these memories from my deepest heart……
*My Last Breath“Holding my last breath, safe inside myself, are all my thoughts of you, sweet raptured light it ends here tonight.”
It’s not only a long story of my youth, but also a short story of my life. I let myself to be left behind. He has said, this song make him to remind me, however, I misunderstand that it was mention about that he loved me, but the truth was not. It ends till I know that he just want me know that he did not love me, but the stubborn me insisted not to believe it.
*Far Away“I run to you, Call out your name, I see you there, farther away”
I walk alone for two years. These times was separated us for two lines-between hate and love. No matter what all of things I’ve done, or all of scenes I’ve pass by, it happened too soon to be seen. I couldn’t distinguish the joke or the reality where we belong. Did I go too far? Or just you leave me too long?
*Breathe No More“Between myself and my reflection, I just can't help but to wonder: Which of us do you love?”
I used to listen to this song to heal my sorrow. Bleeding or breath, just both another side, it reflected my losing lifetime. I give up myself, not this world. I could feel this sunshine and nightmare, I could touch the keyboard or someone’s face….but I couldn’t conscious about the existence of mine.
*My Immortal“You used to captivate me by your resonating light. Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.”
So I try to frozen my pain in this memory, and keep me to be safe to get rid of hurting me by it again. It seems that I fall asleep for a long long time, I can’t remember.
*Bring Me To Life“Wake me up inside. [Save me] Call my name and save me from the dark.”
Till I find him, he must be my final straw, I think this is destiny. I miss the summer, he asked me, than I murmured. He asked me again, I just dare to look at his eyes, which is so tender and softly that shine lights. It definitely that I will fall in love with him, I just know.
*Tourniquet“Am I too lost to be saved? Am I too lost?”
It’s totally wrong; he doesn’t the one who can save me from the hell. But he gives me the power to reject the devil inside my head. Could I be saved? I’m not sure because I can’t see the whole version of the dark side. I live in the shadow behind the sunlight for a long time. It’s really cold here…I need sunlight to warm up my heart, actually, he, he is my sunlight.
*Imaginary“In my field of paper flowers, and candy clouds of lullaby. I lie inside myself for hours. And watch my purple sky fly over me.”
I build up the whole new life with him, in the future, maybe we will going to get married, have a child, move to the south of Taiwan….the castle of our imagination seems so beautiful. We love each other, is it true? The fact is, if we don’t believe, that would break our relationship. However, we keep smile, for a wonderful thing; we keep thinking, for a question that is worth; we keep breath, for the living of life……but do you know, isn’t it our imagination? All of the truth is, Love will keep us alive.
*Missing“Even though I'm the sacrifice, You won't try for me, not now. Though I'd die to know you love me, I'm all alone. Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?”
Though we human beings finally will die alone as we were born, that’s the reason why you need someone to hold your hand to walk through the dark tunnel of your lifetime. Finally you find someone; fortunately you fit in someone’s heart. If I lost, I would try to find the way to meet you again and again, ‘cause I don’t wanna miss someone who is my be loved anymore, but I just too miss you to miss the real me. Am I lost again?
